Every time I come to this program, it has changed!
I am using Windows Live Writer because it posts to my blog with
no problem, but when I tried to open it today, it wasn’t even IN my list of
programs. So I blew over half an hour attempting to discover (at Microsoft.com)
how to download the program. When I got a setup program downloaded and checked
it out, it wanted to reload all of the big programs I already have (including a
lot that I didn’t want to risk losing content I now have.) If it reloaded my
Live Gallery program and lost all of those photos, I’m not sure my heart could
have stood it, so I backed out.
Went back to my list of programs and deleted one from the top of
my display panel when I click on START. As soon as I did, here was the Writer
program back in view. It is STILL not showing in my list of “all programs.” I
am completely frustrated, but I can at least write!
But I can’t write like I WANT to. For some unknown issue I am
now writing on a teeny screen using less than half of the page and the huge rest
of the page is empty! I have wasted more time searching for some way to enlarge
the area and have totally failed, so I decided to just UP the size of the font
to an 18 so I can see it, and will reduce it to a smaller size before I post.
By the way, there is a full page width ribbon at the top just FULL of
interesting commands—word count, find, select all, spell check, hyperlink,
picture, video, formatting choices, cut, copy, paste, publish to various
blogs—but NO way to enlarge the editing page. All the programmers must have
good eyes!
My original title of needing to make time to journal is a
reference to the fact that every time I am under real stress—when a dog dies or
something critical is happening in my life—I to silent. These are the times I
want to be able to look back at, and they are all missing. So I decided to make
a real effort to change.
I am going through a turbulent time now of trying to do so many
things and make so many important decisions.
1. Get my hoarding under control and get back the full use of
my house. I am sick of boxes and mess.
2. I HAVE to keep the yard up to snuff for the park and my new
neighbors.
3. I have not one, but TWO garage sales to get ready for. One
is here at the park on the 19th of this month and the other is on the 31st of
August at the storage units. Both are group sales—park wide and units
wide.
4. I am reducing my use of what little money I have for
discretional spending. I am being ultra careful with my budget. No movie
rentals, no clothes or jewelry—only a little McDonald’s and Wendy’s
foods.
5. Storage fees go up the first of September. I MUST be out of
one of the big units by the end of August. I will need help. Just looking at
them staggers my willpower.
What things are stopping me?
1. My balance exercises at Physical Therapy really helped my
balance, but as soon as I stopped going for help and did not practice at home,
the balance problems returned. I have a really hard time on uneven ground, and
my yard is ALL uneven.
2. I am making time to go to PT to use the equipment that is
helping to strengthen my legs so that I can go on the bus trip to the space
museum. It is taking more time than I have to give. I have to put on “away
from home” clothes and then change back into work duds when I get back and it
just eats up the minutes.
3. I am also using equipment to build arm strength to help with
moving all these boxes and stuff. (I can actually see a bicep developing. It
makes me smile.) It also helps me push myself back up after I topple over on
the dirt.
4. I love my new neighbors and I am taking time to visit with
them on both sides when we are out at the same time. I can feel the minutes
ticking away.
5. Others in the park are also angry at the way the owner is
treating us and we are going to start an effort to develop a Homeowner’s
Association here in the park. I can join the state association for (I think)
$25 but I have to drive to Port Orchard to sign up. I want to go because I will
be able to speak with someone who is in the know about what services it offers.
(More time.)
6. Poco’s leg continues to be a bother. According to the
Internet, he may not necessarily become totally crippled. If I can get his
weight down, he may just be lame. But if his carrying his weight on the other
hip becomes bad enough, THAT leg could also become injured from the same patella
problem. But it says he MUST have short walks so that takes TIME.
7. MY arthritis continues to worsen. The shot in my thumb is
wearing off and it is again painful. I can still hold a glass, but having to do
yard work (weeding and pruning) puts that thumb through a strong workout on a
daily basis. My right foot has long had pain in the top of the foot that I
experience when I walk. That is getting worse. That right ankle has also been
painful. Dr. Gretch said that it was probably arthritis, but it has never been
X-rayed. I have purchased simple black elastic ankle supports that do help, but
in this hot weather they make my leg just pour sweat. The left ankle is also
problematic, but not as bad as the right. The LAT pulls at PT are doing a lot
to help the pain in my right shoulder, but it is still there.
8. Because of the foot, knee and ankle pain, I am trying to
find nsaids that I can take for the pain. I don’t want to mess with anything
addictive until I can’t handle the pain any more. Right now, I get the best
results from the OTC nsaid, Excedrin. I had tried the combination of Ibuprofen
and Tylenol that the dentist had me using when I had that root infection, but it
does not work as well as Excedrin.
9. THIS HEAT! After 24 years in Anchorage and a little longer
than that here in Poulsbo (where temps are NOT usually very warm) it is very
hard on a fat lady not to melt. Two of my meds cause excessive sweating as a
side effect, so I have no escape. It is just harder than ever to keep myself
active with the sweat rolling down my forehead.
I am not finished with my recording of the SITUATION for now, but I have to go get my 2 prescriptions that have been filled on Auto-fill through Rite Aid. It is shady along the road where I walk Poco now, so I can kill 2 birds with one stone, then get home and set sprinklers to do the watering for today.
I feel like I have achieved something. It is a red letter day. I also made myself start a food diary. I am embarrassed to see how BADLY I am eating. I know what I should be eating and I am eating whatever is fastest to fix. Not healthy!
